That your application has been denied.

We’ve decided to move in another direction.

You ain’t getting this job.

Ok, so, maybe I’ve only ever heard the first two, but the third holds the same sentiment. Another job I applied for ended up not working out, but it was a nice rejection. The HR rep called me up and told me that they loved my interview and that they thought I was great and had a ton to offer, BUT they decided to go with someone with more relevant experience, something I don’t blame them for at all. She did say that if there was another position at the company I’d be interested in that she’d be more than happy to put my resume in the right hands.

(After re-reading this post, I realize that it’s a smidge whiny, not too much, but enough to be turribly embarrassing, I put the relevant info above the cut, but if you’re interested, please feel free to follow the jump!)

It’s kind of similar to the job I applied for in a research position. The rejection letter went like this: “You’ve got a lot to offer and we were extremely impressed by your resume, etc. and you’ll make some company happy some day, but you’re not for us.”

It reminds me of when I was a Trentini scholarship finalist in high school. It was a miracle that I’d made it to the finalist stage and in the interviews it became clear that they found my essay to be… interesting to say the least and they liked me because of it. They liked that I wrote an essay about how weird I was! Stuff doesn’t happen like that in high school, kids. Anyway, at the ceremony where they announced who had won, all of the people on the judging panel that I had interviewed with kept coming up to me to shake my hand to tell me what potential I had, how much they liked me and how they knew I’d be able to accomplish anything I set my mind to. I knew by the third person in that I hadn’t won, not that I was surprised (the girl who won was the SGA president, played volleyball, was a straight A student, and sold the art work of South African artists at the local art shop so that she could send the money back to them and she was super sweet and down-to-earth, seriously, she deserved to win). But what I learned that night, was that people love to tell you how awesome you are when you don’t quite fit the bill.

It’s weird, because I know what they’re trying to say is that “you’re great! just for somebody else,” but I tend to focus less on the compliment and more on the negative. I keep applying for all these positions that I’m apparently not quite right for and it makes me wonder if I need to reevaluate what I’m trying to get. And not just with jobs, I tend to get the exact same rejection with guys, which blahs me out. But it makes me think that I should try and consider other jobs (and quit hitting on the exact same type of guy).

I know I like other things besides marketing, but I really think that trying to become a writer or an actor at this junction in my financial situation would be totally not prudent. Maybe this means I should be happy with where I am temping. Maybe.

We’ll see… I guess I just need to be more positive about what could come or what won’t. And if I keep applying elsewhere, what’s the worse that could happen?

I’ve already heard “no.”

P.S.: I totally did fall asleep in front of my laptop while I was trying to post. I’m choosing not to edit it so as to be a reminder to myself that I need to not do silly things like that any more.